Nightmares

                                                                 

 Dream:

After posing a series of strange questions about women's underwear that I answered with relative ease,  a carrot- topped serial killer electrocuted me because I couldn't remember the name of earth's most recent Tsunami. Tsunamis, it turns out, aren't given names. There was a sense of unfairness in the game, beyond the obvious cruelty of threatening to electrocute anyone for anything whatsoever. I didn't know, until conducting research in the waking world, that Tsunamis don't have names. But it must be that I did know, because I sensed on some level that this greasy, pimpled, tortured, ugly redhead had asked me a trick question. ZAP. Bastard. 

Dickinson:

THE BRAIN is wider than the sky,
For, put them side by side,
The one the other will include
With ease, and you beside.
The brain is deeper than the sea,
For, hold them, blue to blue,
The one the other will absorb,
As sponges, buckets do.
The brain is just the weight of God,
For, lift them, pound for pound,
And they will differ, if they do,
As syllable from sound.

On Menstruation

it lets you know it's coming 

during Toy Story 2 

a sneaky suspicion that no one, absolutely no one,

loves you.  Not even Jesus. 

at this point, even worms look appealing. 

imagine if the ones with the guns giggled

in camaraderie when they bled simultaneously

a Nazi and a Yankee died in a busted field somewhere

 saying                                         "you too? imagine that." 

In response to Rusted Moon

Dear Shams 

God's light comes careening from your asshole,

tumbling into your shoes, makes your shoes full. 

Filling your ears when you're sleeping or maybe dying,

whispering numbness and fear of flying. 

God's light comes cascading through your mouth,

splattering the side walk with broken mother spines. 

Going south, God's light explodes with vast uncertainty,

it's a whole  bedfull of eternity! 

something like the fever: 

Sunday , May 17

It would appear that I have rolled off the happy train.  Maybe I'll go to Hell, meet Cobain, fall in love and turn it into heaven. James Joyce! I must write a paper about how in a story about a girl who doesn't get on a boat, he uses language to create paralysis. Its so self-explanitory it hurts. My psychologically disturbed, obese bunny-rabbit is giving me reproachful looks. As if he has any right to criticize! Move lately, big guy? How was that trip to Spain? You're ridiculous. Headline! Girl on train to universal compassion turns rotten egg! All kinds of fucked up! 

Julia Hickey (20) girl of love and insanity turned rotten egg recently, in the time it takes for freshly-picked lilacs to get brown and icky. 

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